one thought: nursing and her minions does wonders for my self-esteem...really....
thought running through my mind: i am sarcastic, i am sarcastic....
Friday, January 27, 2006
imperfect virgo
i dont believe in zodiac signs. but for the record, i am a virgo whose lucky star is mercury, wednesday being my lucky day.
perfectionism marks the typical virgo from her astral neighbors. the virgo loves the letter P: perfection, proper, prim, punctuality, performance....
which is entirely not me at first glance. i used to believe that i am the living proof that zodiac signs and for all that they mean and stand for were false. i am a virgo, whose favorite word begins with p, that is procrastinate, a klutz and a slob, role-model for the future late-comers without the drive or the desire to be perfect or the best. i was not meticulous. i was careless, so unlike the virgo in the sky.
i dunno 'bout you, but perhaps zodiac guidance are recessive or late-bloomers: do they manifest themselves at a later age, unconsciously as if hidden all the while in the id or the superego?? that potential line of reasoning could justify to my reactions and reflexes just now.
i am very particular about how i perform during my clinical duty. a slight mistake or insufficiency in my part will cause me to regress and fall into the deepest pits of depression. i strive to be perfect in handling conversations with my superiors, strive to be excellent in rendering care to my patients and strive to be proficient in my performance of the procedures in my profession (and what did i tell you?? i love the letter p..). normal? not if i freak out everytime i fail.
perfectionist.one with the need to reach the ideal stage of skillfullness and dexterity in a craft. extraordinary as to how i actually am one.
so the million-dollar question? zodiacs: do they really control our fate??
perfectionist that i am, i really don't think so. nah, i belive in a higher being (Him ^^) who ultimately is perfection itself.
perfectionism marks the typical virgo from her astral neighbors. the virgo loves the letter P: perfection, proper, prim, punctuality, performance....
which is entirely not me at first glance. i used to believe that i am the living proof that zodiac signs and for all that they mean and stand for were false. i am a virgo, whose favorite word begins with p, that is procrastinate, a klutz and a slob, role-model for the future late-comers without the drive or the desire to be perfect or the best. i was not meticulous. i was careless, so unlike the virgo in the sky.
i dunno 'bout you, but perhaps zodiac guidance are recessive or late-bloomers: do they manifest themselves at a later age, unconsciously as if hidden all the while in the id or the superego?? that potential line of reasoning could justify to my reactions and reflexes just now.
i am very particular about how i perform during my clinical duty. a slight mistake or insufficiency in my part will cause me to regress and fall into the deepest pits of depression. i strive to be perfect in handling conversations with my superiors, strive to be excellent in rendering care to my patients and strive to be proficient in my performance of the procedures in my profession (and what did i tell you?? i love the letter p..). normal? not if i freak out everytime i fail.
perfectionist.one with the need to reach the ideal stage of skillfullness and dexterity in a craft. extraordinary as to how i actually am one.
so the million-dollar question? zodiacs: do they really control our fate??
perfectionist that i am, i really don't think so. nah, i belive in a higher being (Him ^^) who ultimately is perfection itself.
lover's ville
every school has its own version of lover's ville. typically, it is a long stretch of land area, preferrably grassy and lined with trees (for maximum comfortability). whether it is secluded or not does not matter to the citizens of lover's ville (no, i dont care if you're studying for midterms, i need this place to snuggle up with my cuddly-wuggly, rolly-polly, candy-dandy sugar plum! Xp), for as long as they can touch, gaze, kiss (!),grope (!!!) with each other. this is the place where lovers display their love to the whole exasparated studentry, find a partner for themselves, flirt, show off and God forbid, break up. almost always, lover's ville is a public domain, despite the displayed intimacy meant for private moments. this is usually the school's center of attention, where 'mirons' and 'tambays' get to peep and push their noses in other people's smooching, i-wuv-u-wuv-me-too sessions. some even bet on the outcome of so-and-so's love life.
in my school, lover's ville is located in the kiosks, under the sprawling acacia trees. in other schools, lover's ville means the canteen, the library, the parking lot in front of the hospital (good diversional activities for recuperating patients), the backfield, the pathways (dual purpose: snuggle and judge)...in short, anywhere that is obviously public meant to be used for something essential by the public (the better to annoy mortals like you, my sweet).
never has blatant show of affection ever been so ambivalent...entertaining and grossly hilarious (oh joe! you love me!! you really love me!!) at the same time, sickening and oh so annoying.
get a room.
in my school, lover's ville is located in the kiosks, under the sprawling acacia trees. in other schools, lover's ville means the canteen, the library, the parking lot in front of the hospital (good diversional activities for recuperating patients), the backfield, the pathways (dual purpose: snuggle and judge)...in short, anywhere that is obviously public meant to be used for something essential by the public (the better to annoy mortals like you, my sweet).
never has blatant show of affection ever been so ambivalent...entertaining and grossly hilarious (oh joe! you love me!! you really love me!!) at the same time, sickening and oh so annoying.
get a room.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
~on hiatus
to all the people out there who define themselves by their work and work alone, a word from the humble: give yourself a break before you blow a fuse.
so far, i have bought for myself a Mcdonald's meal which costed me a week's allowance, a DVD i cant see (because i dont have a DVD player), an mp3 player (which i love). i also allowed myself to enjoy touring the mall, window-shopping with friends and dishing out a few well-saved pesos for a meal or 2.
and i am actually loving it...
so far, i have bought for myself a Mcdonald's meal which costed me a week's allowance, a DVD i cant see (because i dont have a DVD player), an mp3 player (which i love). i also allowed myself to enjoy touring the mall, window-shopping with friends and dishing out a few well-saved pesos for a meal or 2.
and i am actually loving it...
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
fast break!
im in my school's computer room, so forgive me if i seem to rush *looks behind for peepers*
i dont know why im logged on to the net, instead of actually meditating for my duty later. it unnerves me, this blatant disregard for school life.
the only thing that keeps me busy nowadays are these: blogging and forums. here i try to maintain a certain semblance of regularity by dropping in once in a while, talking nonsense. in forums, i am striving to pretend that i know something about a thing which i actually know nothing about. the good part is, im actually learning here. lesson 1: dont pretend you know something when you dont: it shows. and it is embarrasing as hell.
duty-literally-calls. i cant even relax this days anymore.
i dont know why im logged on to the net, instead of actually meditating for my duty later. it unnerves me, this blatant disregard for school life.
the only thing that keeps me busy nowadays are these: blogging and forums. here i try to maintain a certain semblance of regularity by dropping in once in a while, talking nonsense. in forums, i am striving to pretend that i know something about a thing which i actually know nothing about. the good part is, im actually learning here. lesson 1: dont pretend you know something when you dont: it shows. and it is embarrasing as hell.
duty-literally-calls. i cant even relax this days anymore.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
'06
happy new year! happy holidays!
better late than never as i say. in the spirit of the hoidays, i decided to say a little something on the subject.
christmas:
it is true that christmas is for kids. they get to receive all the attention and the gifts. its no wonder why kids love christmas. it is also true that its not the gift but the thought that counts, for teens and adults like me. combining the current crisis and one's fading charm and innocence due to the bane of all life processes called aging, its a miracle when you can find a gift with your name on it under the tree (as in milagro! tiene yo gift!!). better treat: they actually got you something you like. this christmas i received a wallet, a skirt, an organizing rack, a perfume, a scarf and a couple of much-needed hankies. and oh, my new braces. it's a bummer, coz nobody seems to realize that i like books and writing materials above all and that a simple notebook, pen or book would have made me very happy, thank you very much. on the other hand, i appreciate the fact that they actually remembered that i exist, despite competition from numerous little cousins and nieces. its a great feeling to be remembered and that is the spirit of christmas.
new year:
being a filipino is a plus when new year comes. i am proud to say that nobody celebrates new year as the filipino does. i remebered one relative saying that new year in other countries are pretty lonely, and that nothing beats the pinoy new year. we ended '05 with a bang! fireworks of all kinds lit the scene, and everybody was out and loud! it didnt matter if we didnt have the firepower-pots, cans, cooking utensils and motorcycles did the thing. new year is a very happy time here. we have food, we have family, we have noise, we have fun, we have prayer and celebration. what more can i ask for?
new year's resolution:
i dont believe in this anymore. if i didnt manage to fulfill last year's resolution, then i cant do it this year. all i hope for this new year is for my life to be fruitful with God. with Him i have evrything.
wishlist:
i need to get this thorn out...i really want these!!!
@fruits basket series, GTO series and naruto series
@cellphone
@mp3 player (ipod will be great)
@digicam!!!
happy new year!!
better late than never as i say. in the spirit of the hoidays, i decided to say a little something on the subject.
christmas:
it is true that christmas is for kids. they get to receive all the attention and the gifts. its no wonder why kids love christmas. it is also true that its not the gift but the thought that counts, for teens and adults like me. combining the current crisis and one's fading charm and innocence due to the bane of all life processes called aging, its a miracle when you can find a gift with your name on it under the tree (as in milagro! tiene yo gift!!). better treat: they actually got you something you like. this christmas i received a wallet, a skirt, an organizing rack, a perfume, a scarf and a couple of much-needed hankies. and oh, my new braces. it's a bummer, coz nobody seems to realize that i like books and writing materials above all and that a simple notebook, pen or book would have made me very happy, thank you very much. on the other hand, i appreciate the fact that they actually remembered that i exist, despite competition from numerous little cousins and nieces. its a great feeling to be remembered and that is the spirit of christmas.
new year:
being a filipino is a plus when new year comes. i am proud to say that nobody celebrates new year as the filipino does. i remebered one relative saying that new year in other countries are pretty lonely, and that nothing beats the pinoy new year. we ended '05 with a bang! fireworks of all kinds lit the scene, and everybody was out and loud! it didnt matter if we didnt have the firepower-pots, cans, cooking utensils and motorcycles did the thing. new year is a very happy time here. we have food, we have family, we have noise, we have fun, we have prayer and celebration. what more can i ask for?
new year's resolution:
i dont believe in this anymore. if i didnt manage to fulfill last year's resolution, then i cant do it this year. all i hope for this new year is for my life to be fruitful with God. with Him i have evrything.
wishlist:
i need to get this thorn out...i really want these!!!
@fruits basket series, GTO series and naruto series
@cellphone
@mp3 player (ipod will be great)
@digicam!!!
happy new year!!
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